My stint with myself!!

Well, it had been a while since I penned down something. MBA preparation somehow pushed me to make this habit which has gone deep down in priority list.

Sitting back and exploring myself, I realised today that this is something which I like to do naturally but may be I am still not good at. So, I decided to visit back to once created blog and write down something.  And here is the biggest question: What do I write on? I don’t have anything specific in mind but I have to write today. But I have life experiences and so I can definitely write on last one year of corporate experience, the changed life after the much fun filled MBA.

I remember the day when I got PPO and I was relieved to not fight out the battle for final placements. Of course I was happy and exhilarated as it offered me most of what I wanted: profile, location, money -almost everything of my choice. Next 6 months was probably one of the longest and most relaxed phases after class 10^th, to the extent that it got boring being so much free after sometime. NITIE offered that liberty to be free all the timeJ. I had done most of what I wanted and possible for a student with money constraints: a long trip with friends, customary Goa trip, playing cricket every day, trying out famous food joints in Mumbai. Now, after almost one and a half year after joining corporate, life is no more the same. The job is still decent, people out there are good. Yes, some uncertainties and intermittent pressure is there but every job has those things but somehow, I am not enjoying. Is it because work has got boring or is it because I am doing something which is not a passion?  I sat down a day and asked myself all these questions and yes, that stint with myself definitely helped. The answer doesn’t lie in the job, work, peers etc., it probably lies in: what else??  I have not been doing much of anything else except hanging out now and then with friends, little chit chats after office, browsing aimlessly through internet. Since that day, I have consistently tried to find out new things which drive me with positivity. Job sucks out your energy, something else must fill you with that energy. That else for me has been to try to be healthy, read books, be completely away from electronic media for atleast 2-3 hours in a day and from today: writing.

One thing which I have definitely learned and I want to pass it on to everyone who reads this. Give 100%, 200% and whatever % in your job but there should always be something else also in your life. Else, life may end up to be too boring and you may start thinking too much about career as that is the only thing left in your life. I am happy that I could identify this early and now, I have other things to enjoy and think of a part from job. After all, career is just one part of your life for most of the corporate people and we work hard so that we can improve other parts of life.  

Self Belief !!!!

Often in our lives we come across situations when we are shattered by the unexpected things. One of those is underachieving . When we put a lot of effort into something but then not able to achieve what we expected, we tend to loose our hearts .We get dissatisfied , introspect about the reasons but still not able to find them. We start doubting ourselves ."Am I not capable enough , did I not put in enough effort , was my approach wrong , did I stumble under pressure or this is not meant for me" and the questions continue.

There is advice from all around but unsatisfied by all the solutions we keep searching for the answer .We search hundreds of reasons but then we end up thinking " I did everything correct , where did I go wrong".

 As the old saying goes " The answer to everything lies within ". Its about the belief within you that brings the difference.We call it Self Belief . A feeling of believing in yourselves.This belief may be the confidence in your idea , confidence in your knowledge , confidence about  results of your hard work or anything . 

It can come from any such reason or naturally with the experiences of life but it can do wonders . It can completely change the way we approach towards our life . We feel more energetic , confident  and optimistic .It is something that can drive you through the difficult situations that are bound to come. Its also something which won't let you be demotivated by others. And that is why , it is the single most common and different thing in all the great people ...common among all of  them and different from the common people.

As it is said : “The only person who can pull me down is myself, and I'm not going to let myself pull me down anymore.”. 

Don't let the lack of self belief come in your way. Trust in yourself  ........ !!!

Spirituality ???

Most of us in India grow up in families with a very spiritual mindset and strong belief in god. Slowly these spiritual habits get ingrained in us and we start visiting temple , church , mosque or gurudwara to pray to our god ; make wishes etc. My childhood was no different . I developed strong belief in god and importance of prayers. For the first 20 years of my life I kept going on the same path but  in the last 4 years of my life so I started  to question myself :  Is there any importance of these prayers to god , isn't it only the karma or deeds of a person which decide his fate.  The belief in god started getting weaker but I kept asking myself why everyone believes in god.I kept going to temple ; praying to god but not with same heart as I used to do it earlier. Before any exam or any important task I offered prayers as usual but within me there was this question " Would this prayer matter at all? "...Isn't it the effort I have put in these tasks that's going to matter....how can this prayer help me ?.....

But With the grace of god I succeeded in those tasks. Yes "with the grace of god ".

Though I succeeded ,I still kept thinking that did those prayers matter.And finally I reached an answer "yes".Not because of those words we recite in our prayers(though there might be another great science hidden in the power of those words or shloks).But because I understood the simple concept of spirituality. I understood that prayers are a source of making our minds more calm and making us more confident. They help us reach a state of mind  where we can just think of what we wish in life for some moments.These are the moments that bring the motivation and positive mind set to move towards our goals.Some say it meditation ; some say it spirituality ; Its ultimately the karma combined with state of mind.And as lord Buddha has stated "What we think ; so we become ".Our mind is a world in itself and if spirituality helps in conquering that world.....It matters.....

Living or Existing ???

Most of us as kids are fascinated by certain things.These can be any toy , game or a person whom we start admiring . We are very less aware about that person or  thing but still we still are crazy about them. Its our heart  that tells us to do so . But as we grow up , sooner or later , slowly our mind starts taking control of our actions . We start thinking of terms like success , career , power , growth and so on . We are not motivated by what good an engineer or doctor does by his or her work but rather by the fame he gets on getting into IIT or AIIMS. And in this race to make a good career we never think about the most important aspect of our life ..." The Purpose of Life"

Slowly, our mind captures our thoughts so tightly that its becomes more and more difficult for us to follow our heart. The heart pumps the blood into our life but no more it pumps that craziness. Many a times we try to find answers from our heart but by that time our mind has already become the master.

We try to ask the purpose from our heart but again and again we fail .We keep moving in unknown direction thinking that we'll be left behind if we don't move. We start saying that fate will take us to our purpose.

But then as I move somewhere I keep feeling and asking myself " What is the purpose of my life ? ".The question haunts me every now and then . I don't know whether the answer lies in Introspection or moving ahead . Or is there any third thing where the answer lies. The answer to reason of my existence. Am I living or only existing . Do answers lie in my future or I have already lost them in my past  along with that craziness of childhood . I don't have answers but I shall not give up . I can't go back , so just like everyone I am moving ahead in search of that answer......To not only exist but to live !!!!